Betrayed trust ;

Happy times.

2011-08-09T13:19:00.002+08:00

I was so bored i had to blog o.o.
DEAD BLOG. Hopefully there's people reading.
Let's just let pictures do the talking.

PSF's event. Everything was a succes. Look at all the happy smiles of PSP (: Hairbands ftw

Technical training, My group <3 and my dear wife ^^ heh

PSP OC. Dearest spiderweb station hehe :D

PSP OC group photo <3 YAY :D

S&W loves :D

Special needs camp :D

Out to orchard! :D

That outing long ago @ clarkequay

Annabelle's and keric's birthday :D. Candleee playing <3

ECP turned into pasirris park outing. WE WANT CHANGE (:

Grey ribbon at OC. Miss them :D

Grey ribbon webcam! Awesome much.

Dinner and lepak session @ J8 with <3

Camwhore at OC <3

Ending off, with esplanade with PEIJUN. On valentines' :D

Lastly, Not forgetting this.

<3 DEYI F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Anywhere you go I'll be there

2011-04-02T16:49:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to do already. Everything's so messy. Fml. Take it as I'm useless. I can't let go neither can I move on.

I suddenly miss the past so much. Clarkequay, Busrides. Amkhub. Voiddecks. Classrooms. I know I can do nothing to get the past back. All of us are so distant already. Anyway, I can't accept new friends. I miss every single of my present and past.

I love you people ^^

In the middle of the night.

2011-03-11T03:03:00.003+08:00

Hey.

I don't know what's with life recently. I thought I could just lead my new life in poly. End up that i can't. I can't put down everything in sec sch. Those amazing times spent with awesome people. Might not mean much to many. But alot to me.

Being alone since young. Has made me think alot. Not occasionally. But practically everyday. I dare not voice out anything to anyone. I haven't been able to voice out and trust anyone totally. Need a true friend.

Dearest, I swear I need you now. I'm hanging on for you. I know you'll stay with me. Without you. I don't know what to do. See you soon. Very soon. I love you.

Got to get some sleep. Nights.

Fuck, I wish I could just let go.

We belong together

2011-02-20T01:37:00.001+08:00

Woooo :D. Maybe I should start blogging soon? :D

Lights go on again

2010-11-19T10:29:00.004+08:00

Heyheyhey! :D.

Moved to tumblr (:

:D:D:D

My mind tells me to let go, but my heart doesn't want to.

2010-09-07T15:49:00.009+08:00

It's not about the time we spent together, it's about the memories we've made together.

"A true friend is one who walks into your life when the whole world walks out."

Florence, Huixin, Mingyong, Prashanth, Sherene, Vivian :D

Hey there, yes talking to you.

I'm sick and tired of whatever's happening already. I hate the way you behave, and everything.

Srsly, This feeling sucks. No use rewinding back time now.

From all these, I found my true friends. They know who they are, and i love them.

Though they can't be 24/7 there for me, I've learnt to stay strong.

I don't need you here with me anymore (:

and hey you.

You know I was waiting for you to talk to me right.

I really miss you.

I love you, and because of that, I'm trying my best to let go.

and yeah, Shouldn't be posting untill after O's :D.
Catch me on plurk/twitter! :D

Was it something I said or it was just my personality? (:

2010-08-26T22:35:00.002+08:00

A tiny little step till prelims are over :D

JIAYOU KKK EVERYBODY!

I hate not being able to do anything when all these happening,

THIS FEELING SUCKS.

~~"He's not there anymore"~~

all i ever wanted is a simple way to get over you.

2010-08-09T12:03:00.002+08:00

Happy National day (:

Happy birthday laylin! ;D

5moredays till YOG ;)

11moredays to PRELIM.

Where're you everytime when i need you. \

Earthquakes can't shake us, Cylones can't break us, Hurricanes can't take away our love.

2010-08-02T21:08:00.007+08:00

Upcoming events in august :D.

9- National Day.

14- YOG opening.

18- English Oral.

20- Prelim starts

24- Huixuan's

28- Huixin's

31- Teachers' day celebration

September :D.

3- Prelim ends

4- Sept holidays.

17- Huitong's

25- Dawn's

Hectic ah! Okay, JIAYOU JIAYOU. We all can do it :D

Hey, Many people are supporting you. Don't give up, not till the end (:

Come backbackback to me. I'm waiting for you. Ohohoh Tonight's soso crazy.

2010-07-10T19:31:00.004+08:00

From now on, I'm fighting a war with olevels :D. Till 12th november okay.

This retarded enemy has alotttttt of soldiers ):

Namely, Time Distractions Stupidness English Maths Science Humanities. & MORE!

Hais, this war's gonna end in 4 months time. Not exactly but yeah.

JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU :D.

*He'll be supporting you all the way.

I really wish he'll wish me lucks for o's. Just like what he did then.

Kiss me all night don't ever let me go. I'll never be the same, if we ever meet again

2010-07-01T21:03:00.003+08:00

This picture's my comp wallpaper :D

Sometimes, I'm super jealous of autistic people.

Most people thinks they're unlucky, I think they're super lucky to be born with that illness.

Almost everybody looks at autistic people in a different way, with another pair of eyes.

Even though, alot people stare at them in a different way in the public,

They are always unaware of everything happening around them.

They're always concentrated on whatever they're doing themselves.

I think being able to not care about the way others look at you is a very lucky.

Sometimes, I wish to be autistic too.

I don't mind being dumb, I just don't wanna know anything happening around me .

I don't wanna close my eyes, don't wanna fall asleep cause I miss you.

2010-06-30T22:49:00.003+08:00

Well, If I never met you. I don't know what'll life be now.

Spending my time thinking and imagining too much.

Just wanna say, I don't want you out of my life ;) ilyttm.

Stay-ed in school today. Was supposed to finish up integration wskt.

But didn't though, Hahs. Helped ZIHUI with her symbol. It was cool ;)

Cause I just spammed paint anywhere! Wasn't much of a help! HAHAS.

Talk-ed alot with her ley! ;D.

Took the bus we used to take tgt home today.

Miss-ed a stop. Thought alot throughout yeah.

During the busride and when I'm walking.

Somehow, I missed you, and just you.

Je T'aime (L)

2010-06-26T11:56:00.006+08:00

I just wanna say, you came into my mind 25212102. (:

What are tears?

Yeah, Only salty water ;)

I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start.

2010-06-16T19:14:00.003+08:00

"Do you miss the times when we had FUN?"

Like this.

205th's

2010-06-14T20:32:00.004+08:00

Did he?

Today, I found out something.

Today, I found out that everybody have feelings.

Today, I found out that alot people hide them.

Today, I found out that guys can be sad too.

Today, I found out that it's okay to be sad.

Today, I learnt how to care for someone.

Today, I know that there're many other people in worst situations.

Today, I wish for nobody in this world to be sad.

Today, I hope, he cheers up soon.

Today, I pray that he'll change back to his former self .

Though I know it'll hurt him more. Sorry, I'm just so selfish.

Today, I hope;

Today, I wish;

Today, I pray;

I'll be happy, and to spread my smile all over the world (:

Today,

I wish not to cry anymore. :D

Again & again- 2pm

2010-06-08T22:06:00.001+08:00

Nevermind, nvm about today. My fault. My problem. -end-

Holidays officially started. Mugging time,

Need to understand the friking integration x.x .

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand, I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned.

2010-06-03T22:36:00.003+08:00

Somedays, I don't know what to do. Smile or cry, lots happened today.

Sorry, I doubt I could carry on further. I can't do anything right, really.

I'm that, epic total fail. Oh whatever, Resign to fate. I can't change it anw.

Happy Birthday SINROU. LOVE' BCCNM :D

You took a hammer to these walls, dragged the memories down the hall.

2010-05-29T21:25:00.005+08:00

*crosses finger for monday*

Emotional thoughts, too many to be typed.

& Happy birthday sweetheart, Loveya'.

Can we pretend that airplanes In the night sky Are like shooting stars I could really use a wish right now

2010-05-15T23:03:00.003+08:00

HI :D, Just came back home. Tmr's my last day of slacking ):
& I've got to buy chinese assesment & do alr (:
Yeap, chiong uh. I'm so serious abt it alr. Keep me motivated k (:

But... I'm tired of life.
Hahs, Seriously tired. Thanks for everything you've done for me eh.
Bye, blogging less often now. Nothing to post & yah, no time. I've got to chiong.

Catch me @ plurk/twitter/facebook :D
Caught this yesterday w/ a bunch of 5 peeps ytd :D.
Kind of cheer me up a little beacuse ytd I was ... :/

Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape, might as well face it, we’re stuck with each other.

2010-05-12T00:06:00.003+08:00

AMATHS AMATHS :D
Tmr last paper, Jiayou sec4s & 5s (:

Stuck with each other- Shontelle (:

And I miss you, been far away for far too long. I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go.

2010-05-08T18:12:00.010+08:00

PICTURE SPAM. & I mean, SPAM. (:
Let pictures do the talking (: [Not in order]

On my knees, I'll ask, Last chance for one last dance

'Cause with you, I'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all, I'd give for us. Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause I needed is to hear you say that I love you
I have loved you all along, and I forgive you for being away for far too long.
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore. Believe it, hold on to me and, never let me go.

Knockyoudown.

2010-05-07T19:49:00.002+08:00

When a person appears cheerful & smiling at all times, he/she may be suffering in pain inside. You won't know, nobody'll know.

; Believe in yourself, & give everything up.

Easier said than done, I don't know what to do anymore.
Lost confidence, I don't care anymore Seriously.

But I never told you, what I should've said. No, I never told you. I just held it in.

2010-05-03T10:40:00.003+08:00

And now, I miss everything about you. Can't believe I still want you.
And aft all the ting we've been through, I miss everything about you.

~~I don't mind, I really don't mind if nobody cares.~~
~~I just, want you to care.~~

Falling so hard, so fast this time.

Feeling so uneasy now.

2010-05-01T15:49:00.004+08:00

I'm so tired from studying D: !! & everything else.

B: Cheerup luh. Earth is round ;D. Sooner or later attention will be on you :D
A: For 1s.

A: (confidential) but what if one day it hurts so much till it doesn't anymore
B: It's okay to believe in yourself okay! WTH. You must learn to like, don't keep everything inside you (:
B:You've to accept it okaaaay. It's fate & no one can change it. You've to believe in yourself that you can do it okay (: , Just try your best to forget whatever's impossible to forget it now.
B:Time will heal (: Hard, I know. You must still try (:

I used to tell my friends all those the cheer them when they've problems etc.

Now it's my turn & I don't know what to do anymore.
I'm sorry for being such a bitch & have not been caring about anything.
I just don't want anything to affect my emotions & affect my life.

NVM :D. Shall sort my thoughts out soon yeah?

You said that will but then you don't so I'm gonna take this step alone.

2010-04-30T21:09:00.002+08:00

Music- This step alone.

I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP NOW.

I don't know what to do, My life's in a mess.

And this solitary moment makes me want to come back home.

MESSEDUP, FUCKEDUP LIFE.
Even thinking of the happiest thing doesn't cheer me up anymore...

The higher you aim, the harder you fall.

2010-04-29T22:41:00.002+08:00

English was, hardhardhardhardhard.
WTF CAN FAIL ALR.
+ I was seriously thinking of you throughout half of the exam.
and i was like staring at you.

Chinese paper tmr :D. Aiming for a B4 this time..
Hard but it's possible k ! :D
Off to study aft I completed this post (:

Study session w/ usuals tmr :D.
We're so going to help each other scoreeeee !!!

Got burnt this morning as you walked pass.
I really don't mind if it's my punishment. But I know, that ain't enough.
It hurts so much now, & yeah, a scar.
Not even 1% of the pain in my heart, not even 1% deep as the cut made by you.
Punish me with whatever you want. I just want you back.
I just haven got over you, & I think, I won't.

When my love for you was blind, I couldn't make you see it. That I loved you more than you'll ever know.

2010-04-24T14:16:00.008+08:00

FIVE MORE FIVE MORE DAYS.

Sec4s, Endure okaaaaaaaay.

TWENTYNINE more weeks & we get to party.
Just work hard for these few weeks & everything'll be over.

&, I don't know what to do anymore, someone help me. Anyone, just someone.

"Some people search, but never fins a way. Thus, before long, they waste away." (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIAN.T :D

So tell me darling do you wish we fall in love?

2010-04-20T22:57:00.002+08:00

Just to update abit, I'm off to sleep soon yah (:

Talked so much about the past today.
Missed it alot yeah. Days with no stress, All we do is play slack talk & BOND! :D
those days're over, Time to start bonding tgt & motivate each other to study!

Physics mock exam tmr.
I cmi, Just flipped open the book & then close it :D.
Way too tired to study, I'm afraid I can't pay attention tmr.

Thanks for everything,

Earth goes in rounds, round & round.
It'll come to you in no time. Just be patient, wait.

Everything is there, just that not everything shows. Just like stars (:

Everything have their way of showing themselves. Sometimes in the funniest way ever (: Hahas, I finally know, what you meant when you said that :D.

Cry on my shoulder.

2010-04-16T21:35:00.002+08:00

I've got so many things to say, So many things to rant.

Nobody's here for me nowwww. All left, ALL.
Noone would let me cry my hearts out to them,
No one shoulder to cry on, No one to hug and cry with.

I'll just, cry with myself & get over it. Talk to the walls. Or anything.
Nobody could be trusted at this moment. Not even my closest.
A wrong move will cause, everything to collasp. I don't want.
I wish I could just piece everything back tgt like a jigzaw puzzle.
Or rewind back time to fix everything done wrong, so that it'll be perfect.

Heyhey, Believe you can do it. YES YOU CAN :D.
Got to start studyingggg with PEIJUN at the library tmr (:

There are so many people out there that tell you that you can't. What you've got to do is turn around & say, "Watch me".

And I always treated you as somebody I love (:

In a sea of people, There is only you. I never knew what the song was about, and suddenly now I do.

2010-04-12T21:53:00.002+08:00

I feel, like an obsessive bitch.

I don't know whether was it tears or sweat this morning.
I really don't know, It might be tears of joy.
But at that point of time, My heart really hurts.

& then it was another piece of shocking news.
I was really worried for them.
I won't want anything like this to happen ever again.
I'm sorry I can't do anything, I'm useless.

(The worst part of happiness is that when you've no one to share it with.)

I always knew looking back at tears will make me laugh, But I never knew looking back at laughs will make me tear.

~~Do I really mean anything to you?~~
~~No, I ain't impt, you don't need me.~~

deyiMILITARYband :D

2010-04-11T11:44:00.006+08:00

BestDisplayBand,BestDrumMajor, GoldWithHonours (:

Great job! Humans, aliens, & BAND MEMBERS :D

Branda, Bruce, Dawn, Fion, Grace, Hninphyu, Hongwen, Huimin, Huitong, Iling, Jade, Jiaying, Jiexin, John, Joseph, Kumar, Kyna, Sherene, Veronica, Yurong, Zhenning.

I'm soso proud of all of them nowwww (:
Looking forward to '12. :D
Thanks for the memories, All of you. Really.

More like friends than juniors! :D

2010-04-10T11:40:00.007+08:00

(Warning, long posttt) :D

~~From my first ever performance in '07, Artfiesta. To the first major performace, SYF'09.~~
~~Till the last ever performance in '10, Lunchtime concert. All faded into memories.~~

Believe it or not, I cried even before I typed this post. Hahhs.
I'll miss everyone, Really. I regret not writing cards for them ):
Annabelle, Eileen, Nicole, Jasreen, Kelly, ShiShan, Vanessa.L, Vivian.H, Vivian T.
Cindy, Dune, Felicia, Ilin, Jason, Jiaqi, Liyana, Sophia, Vanessa.G.

My dear sec1 juniorrrrrs :D

Don't know all the names, but here's some I know;
Audrina, Eileen, Erica, Jingmei, Kenric, Liucan, Meini Shannon.

There's others, I just don't know their nameeeeeee ):

Thanks for making me laugh for the past few months yeah! :D
You all never fail to cheer me up whenever I'm sad.
Never failed to talk all the crap with me, laugh like mad with me.
We've known each other for that few months only, I'll still miss all.
Really, I enjoy talking with them. I love all.

Discipline problems, There've been alot. I haven't been caring though.
My dear sec1s, I want to see the discipline improved with I go back k! :D

I doubt anyone reads my post, Hahhs.

The moment of gloryyy {:
DMB FTW! :D.
Jiayou kay. Make the '07 batch proud! WE CREATE HISTORY (:
Am looking damn forward to the results. JIAYOU K, deyiMILITARYband :D

/edit 9.04pm.
DMB WON ALL 3 AWARDS :D. Proud of them kkk (:

Cause every breath that you will take when you are sitting next to me will bring life into my deepest hopes.

2010-04-09T17:58:00.002+08:00

No, I don't want to cry anymore.
Teared so much when I pressed the "send" button on my phone.
Damn, I finally got the courage. Better than nothing hur?

Had so much fun today,
Annabelle, Audreyna, Eileen, Florence, Nicole, Huixin, Shishan, Vanessa.
They made my day so wonderful (Y) . Thanks, Thanks all.

Got to go type my messages for band members noww (:

Iloveyou, you.

Suddenly realised I'm such a, such a bitch.

Why does love always feels like a battlefield.

2010-04-06T14:08:00.003+08:00

Baby, I'm sorry...

Helloooooooo :D
Elearning's kind of over, now left with emaths mockexam & chinese oral tmr :D.
JYJY PEOPLE :D. Physics SPA postponeddddd (:

The day's getting closer, closer, closer.
I doubt I could let go.
BangBang <3, Let's go through it tgt (:

FOUR more for Mband.
(:

Rants, :D

2010-04-04T12:52:00.005+08:00

Firstlyyyyyy, I'm lazy to post about ytd :D.
So, refer to yokehuei's blog ;D

Secondlyyyyyy, today's FOURTH of APRIL !
It's a sunday uhuh :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADELINE & YANYEE :D
& Sihui's eunhyuk O.O

LazyLazy elaborate D: !
Have to go outtouttoutt alr :D

BYE HUMANS, BYE AILENS!

ILOVEYOUUUUUUUUU

And nobody came between us, Noone could ever come above.

2010-04-02T20:11:00.004+08:00

Well, count to ten, take it in. This is life before you know who you're gonna be.
Baby, I love you! :D

If hurt is missing you baby, I’ve done too much of it lately.
Cause every minutes like an hour; Every hours like a day; Every day lasts forever.
But what else I'm gonna do. I’d wait forever and a day for you.

Time's running out out out D: !
Next week's elearning, chinese oral, emaths mock exam, then physics o level SPA ):
Tmr will have to spend the whole day out looking for things! :/
Tmr's tmr have to go temple(?).

No time! NO TIME to study ):
I've lots & lots to catchup; Sec3 stuffs, days when I slept, those days when I'm absent.
DAMN IT D: !

JIAYOUJIAYOU :D. You can do it okay! (:

EIGHT more days for the Mband members.
Endure :D. Don't get sick/injured uh! x)

Wake me up, when september ends.

2010-03-30T17:46:00.003+08:00

Looks like I'm back to being really tired.
Going to keep myself really busy. I don't want to have time to think.
Have to study for amaths test tmr after this post (:
10thapr, 11 more days.
I promised her that I'll study super hard when that day comes :D.
I'm really afraid I can't let go. No, i must let go.

Another thing is that I want to change you.
I failed. Seriously failed. Looks like I can't do anything much either.
You refuse to talk to me, refused to look at me.
You don't know how much I cried behind your back.
Thanks, you're worth the tears.

Never expected much out of my life.
Live with it, Life's going to be painful (:

Iloveyou, J :D

Change is constant.
kthanksbye. I'm a bitch (:

We got to fight for this love (:

2010-03-28T18:15:00.009+08:00

Overdued picture spam :D
Came home & study CHEMISTRY :D.
Hardworking eh me :D, My book damn pathetic D:

Walked pass NAFA & SOTA today :D
Kindof cool leh, So deserted leh NAFA :/!
Oh & I saw the car! COOL RIGHT, 2211 :D
Saw at orchard central ytdddddd.
SO COOL LAH :D. I like the rubrik(?) cube one!
The pictures were drew by jinxuan (:
The frog was found on annabelle's book o.o ( she claims it's cute?!)

I don't know who and what to trust anymore. Hais.
Youyouyou, Idon'tknow what to do. Your words... :/
DAMN, I shall survive on my own. At least, I hope I'll survive.

I'm in love with this song. so hush baby shutup.

2010-03-25T21:05:00.007+08:00

I don't understand why're there so many different kinds of people exists in this world.

Ups & downs,
you talk to me & stick with me when I'm needed, ignore me when I'm not needed ^^.

I love my LOVER & ANNABELLE, & ofcourse BCCNM :D.

Thankyou sec1s for letting me get back my real smile!
Laughed lots with you all today :D. ILY!
All of you rocked ttm x) Sorry don't know all of your names yet uh :/!

Heard enough, Stop talk talking that blah blah blah.

10th apr, it's soon. Soon I must forget and stop thinking about you. Studies should be piority uh.
You told me you won't study till a month before exams. It's about 1 month to midyears alr,
Study please, study hard. I'm sure you can make it. I'll try my best too, If you try.
I just can't, can't stop thinking about, you. iloveyou (:
You've overtired yourself recently.Takecare okay? Don't sleep so late alr.
& yeaps, have your meals regularly. Don't do this to me, to yourself.
Sighs, I regret letting you step into my life. I shouldn't had ...
I love you, dearest. 10th apr, it's going to be the day I stop saying i love you.

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

2010-03-22T18:50:00.005+08:00

It's YOU that I'm missing.
Losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off .
Won't somebody, anybody. Please just turn the lights on
I can't breathe, I can't see. It's like my mind is playing tricks on me lately
I'm on a merry-go-round, going around, driving me crazy .

10th apr 2010,
that special date for me & for you.
After that, I'll not think of you anymore.
I promise I'll concentrate on my studies, I hope you'll too.
Thanks for the memories, ily.

Nothing brings me down, when you're around.

2010-03-21T12:48:00.002+08:00

When you're fifteen, someone tells you they love you, you got to believe that.

18 hours you didn't text me, I'm worried.
imy, J.

Shout it from the roof top, Write it on the sky love.

2010-03-20T12:51:00.006+08:00

Broken trust and broken hearts. Tell them I was happy, Tell them what I hoped would be.

WE AIN'T EVEN FRIENDS (:

ily, J.

I just don't love you no more.

2010-03-19T01:14:00.003+08:00

I MISS J :X
it's not the j you're thinking about. I'm missing this J alotalot. Hahs, I'm just a fail. But, the fact's I love you so.

Don't call my name, Alejando.

2010-03-17T18:44:00.003+08:00

Went to GOLDENMILE FOOD CENTRE today :D.
(put bigbig for yokehuei see)

Hm, took 2hrs to go there as we went there by bus,
& we were kind of lost looking for the busstop O.O.
Walked rounds & rounds thereeee, didn't manage to find anything.
But I SAW ALOT ORANGEEEEE THINGS D:
I want but no money ): ! Hahs.

Went downstairs to buy tangyuan(?) for her family x)
& KNS I SAW MY COUSIN THERE :/
Throw my face sial, he working there O.O.
(I'm begging him to find a better job the next time I see him)

Took bus to kallang then MRT-ed to bugis :D
Bugis junction-Bugis street-Illuma- Junction again .
Legs were tired untill want dieeee alr! , So train-ed home!

I think I became blacker today D:
Keep on walking under sun! :/
& yeah, the sun was so bright today. I kept thinking about you,
wondering how are you, what you're doing.

Okayokay, I want go do my mathhhs alr D: !

The truth.

2010-03-14T19:51:00.004+08:00

I suddenly, suddenly miss everything now.
EVERY SINGLE thing and part of me :/.

2009, changed me alot.
Include being more rebellious, not studying etc.
It was when I started staying out till late at night.
& Especially meeting ... & falling for you.

I didn't even know I felled for you. Hahs.
How foolish, I just went on blindly till you told me to give up.
Though it hurts much, I tried my best to letgo.
It's best we maintain as hi-bye friends, not too close anymore.

Slowly, without realising I fell for 21 :/
I really love ... so much, untill you crashed my hopes recently.
Trying my best to forget you now, & treat you as a normal friend.
I hope I could do it :)

& I met you, the first person who I told everything to.
I had no idea why, you gained my trust the first time we talked.
I loved you so much, yet I hurt you too.
Sorry, I just needed you so much.

and you, who stood by me since 2008.
all the way through 2009, you were with me.
Thanks (: Though you left me alr :/
Thanks for the memorable memories given :X.

Lastly, there's herhimherherherherhim.
Judging by the number of people, you should know who're they alr.
I miss them so much, just so much.
Since 2008, We've been through thick & thin.
I'm torn to see what've happened now :/ Hahs.

You might not believe this, I'm crying while typing this post.
Oh whatever, Maybe I'm just too emotional.
I'm tired of people leaving me. & I'm tired of being all alone.

Almost forget, there's still herherherher.
I love them <3, I still do :/

Lots to catchup ):

2010-03-10T09:49:00.005+08:00

Lots to catch up for not being in school for 2 whole days :/
Coughing like mad still though o.o
Temperature slightly higher than normal :X.

Forcing myself to go for remedial later,
If temperature doesn't go up :D.

I'M HUNGRY LAH OMG D:

:D

2010-03-09T15:57:00.003+08:00

So when you feel like hope is gone, Look inside you and be strong.
And you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you.

It's a long road, When you face the world alone.
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold,
You can find love, If you search within yourself,
And the emptiness you felt will disappear.

Dreams are hard to follow, but don't let anyone tear them away,
Hold on, There will be tomorrow,
In time you'll find the way.

You don't have to be afraid of what you are,
There's an answer, If you reach into your soul,
And the sorrow that you know will melt away.

And then a hero comes along, With the strength to carry on.
And you cast your fears aside and you know you can survive.

Cry me a river.

2010-03-07T11:58:00.002+08:00

AWESOME CAMP! :D

but i won't like to go through anything like this ever again.

Learnt alot, really alot (:
Switching to the study mode ASAP, i hope I could do it!

But I never told you. What I should have said.
No, I never told you, I just held it in.
And now, I miss everything about you.
Can't believe that I still want you.
And after all the things we've been through.
I miss everything about you.

i love 735pm (:

2010-02-28T11:58:00.004+08:00

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart
Guilty roads to an endless love,

I don't know I don't know. I suddenly miss you again.
Forgive, forget, & letgo.
It's the best way, but I just can't do it.

I don't wanna be like this. I just wanna let you know
That everything I hold in, Is everything I can't let go.

Cause baby, I don't wanna waste another day.
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave;
I'm inconsolable.

I'M LOST FRIKING LOST NOW D:
I don't know what to do. I can't do anything with all these happening.

Haven't been concentrating on my schoolwork for awhile.
It's gonna be hard to catchup.
Have to study extra hard, after everything's over.
Just pray and hope that it's gonna be over soon, Really soon.

You've found someone; It breaks my heart, Cause you're so in love.
I wish that my touch, makes you smile just like that.
And I wish that I had you, the way that she has.
Cause I still remember the love, I left behind.
Oh I wish I was her, And you were mine.

I think somebody's trying to talk to me.
But I can't hear a word they're saying.
All I can do is stare at you, I don't even know why I'm staying.
Never thought, I'd cry to see you happy.
Its just I Thought that your happiness, was right here with me.

The way that she has you, I wish that was me.
There's no place on earth, That I'd rather be.
I used to be right beside you, Now I'm not even kept inside your heart.
I put our love upon a shadow, But now it's gone.
Cause you belong, to someone else.

Touch my hand {:

2010-02-27T09:37:00.003+08:00

Saw you from a distance, Saw you from the stage.
Something about the look in your eyes, Something about your beautiful face.
In a sea of people, there is only you.
I never knew what the song was about, But suddenly now I do.

Can’t let the music stop, Can’t let this feeling end.
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never see you again.
Can’t let the music stop Until I touch your hand.
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never get the chance again.

Suddenly, thought of ... When they were viewing it, my heart hurts so much.
I promised myself not to look at it anymore, but I just can't, can't.
Heart hurts, It's in a total mess. Idkidk what to do.
A few hours changed everything, really everything.
I don't even know, why; Mentally tired.

Couldn't get my mind of what happened ytd; both you&you.
I don't understand my heart, my mind anymore.
Follow your heart, there's so many routes in there now, which to choose?
Enough, it's tiring enough. I need a break, but i don't want to letgo.

those bangbang sounds, just those sounds hurt my so much.
Seeing you makes my heart break, into pieces.
Idk whether it's purposly or what, idon'tknow.

those beepbeep sound, reminds of those memories of us.
I know those are over, but i can't get over it uh. I can't.
I'm glad that you still ... :/ But yah, takecare please.

those beebbeeb sounds, memories too.
Don't know why i cried when you're sad, even when you're happy.
Idk what to do alr, trymybest barh. Thanks for all the memories.

those kiabkiab imaginations, hahs. It's like a dream.
It's a dream when you appeared beside me, talked to me & stuffs.
I was so happy but couldn't express it then.
I'm so going to miss you, sure of it.

Hey, I ain't emo (:
I haven't even got to the aspect of me being sad yet.
I'm not sad, I just miss bangbeepbeebkiab you&you suddenly ):

Ending off with loves,
to you & maybe you.

hihi

2010-02-23T22:38:00.000+08:00

UPDATED :D

I'm a irritating bitch !

2010-02-16T23:38:00.005+08:00

According To You, I'm stupid. I'm useless. I can't do anything right.
According to you, I'm difficult. Hard to please, Forever changing my mind.

Even though it's just an misunderstanding,
I took it damn seriously. Idk what to do, what to say.

Jade: Happy CNY & belated valentines' :D. Hehs, I'm trying my best to smile alr! THANKS for the concern (:
Blah xD: Cool! Same birthdate! Leave your link? (:

Everything is opposite. I don't feel like stopping it.
I need to feel appreciated, like I'm not hated.

D:

2010-02-15T21:56:00.003+08:00

Starting to think back on what happened.
Starting to think back on what she told me.
Everything's starting to stress me out now.
Him, her, her, her & him. & obviouslly studies...
It's time to let go of everyone, not just love.
I shouldn't be so possesive. I'm the one wrong, not her kay.

Sick & tired of crying my hearts out for you & you.
I'm just some attention seeking bitch.
What's the point of crying, it won't solve anything.
I'm stupid, I'm useless, I can't do anything right.
& I used to need you, I still need you now.

How many bloody times I said I want to let go of you?
Unlimited times, I just can't let go.
Let it be, I can't either. I'm afriad I'll fall too deep.
I really dk what to do, I know it won't be possible.

Everybody either has their partners, soulmates or closest friend.
I just hate the feeling of being alone. This sucks.
Nobody Nobody cares. Uncountable people told me they'll be there.
End up, end up dk where they went to? Heaven?
Hahs, Just ended up with people that they love more that they love me.

Fb; Don't make someone your everything cos' when they leave you're left with nothing.
They left me, & yet I'm really left with nothing. This's life?
She told me, you can't be too close with someone, there must be a distance.
Why didn't I thought so? STUPID ME.
Regret being so close with you, I told you & you everything.

I just want to let go of everything, Somebody teach me how.
I just feel like screaming, crying everything out now.
I don't know, really don't know what to do.

Ignore that friking crap up there,
D:

we're one mistake from being together,

2010-02-13T20:07:00.007+08:00

But let's not ask why it's not right.

Fate brought us together, we became close,

& then we drift :/

Pictures speaks a thousand words :)

I really dk what's this feeling now,

Oh, I'm running out of words to say,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & VALENTINES' DAY :D

another 21 hearts to you today,
ily, I really do :X

be back then we didn't have to live, we could start again.

2010-02-12T22:43:00.005+08:00

Let's make new memories! :D

I guess it's impossible.

I only could hope to rewind time, 271009 1031pm.

I guess you overtired yourself. Takecare, Rest well.
I'm looking forward to seeing the, hyper loveable you again (:

and I can see the pain in your eyes, since everybody's changing.
and I don't know why, so little time.
Try to understand that I'm trying to make a move just to stay in the game.
I try to stay awake and remember my name.
But everybody's changing, and I don't feel the same.
Soon you will disappear cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right.

I just don't know what I'm feeling,
This kind of crap, everybody's changing, everything's changing.
This sucks, sucks so much. I really can't take it anymore.
Thought that after crying all out, I'll feel better. No I ain't any better.
Heart just aches so much when you walked away.
Hoping so much that you'll come towards me when you're walking that direction.
I know you won't, but I just hoped so.

Okayokay :D. Enough of those emo craps. :X.
I've happyyyyyy times too kay! :D

Met Florence Huixin Sherene Vivian this morning! :P.
Schooled & yah :/ & I cut my hand when doing the deco for classroom D:
Like use the penknife cut 2-3 times somemore. I DIDN'T KNOW OKAY.

After school, Mac-ed, shop around with vivian.
& then went home (:

've been alone for a few days alr.
Quite cool, getting used to it soon :D!

Signing off,
I do miss you ahhhhhh (:

Might not be close ever again (:

2010-02-10T17:07:00.007+08:00

We really won't be close ever again, I should let go of you & you.

We're fated to meet, get close & then drift apart..
It might mean nothing to you, but x infinity alot to me :X

It's hard to let go, when I finally decided to,
Nothing, I've nothing left but myself.

Hello :D. Today quite fun!
Walk-ed only 3 rounds for PE cos' leg was injured o.o
Hehs, I wanted to run laaahs! But pain was un-endurable.
Chem-geog-recess.

Then has amaths test! :D
Left blank for PLANE GEOMETRY :D.
Didn't know how to do 2 questions on differentiation too D:
Fail le, fail le, I doubt the question that I got do add up to 10 :X.

English, Write haikus! :D
I like mine! I think it's so damn nice :X.

throughout all the times,
you're like my favourite song,
always there for me.

When I'm with you,
I'll treasure every minute,
you are loved by me! :D

HehesHahasHohos! Laughed like mad when I heard something {:

Lots of things happens after school,
Which idw to say anw :/

BYEBYES! :D SEE YA! :D

Oh, Happy birthday EILEEN! :D

Stressed up

2010-02-07T11:21:00.005+08:00

It doesn't matter as long you've tried your best?
Crap, IT'S ALWAYS THE RESULTS THAT MATTERS.
"I don't think she wants you back you know. She keep saying your studying attitude sucks and all that. But I think she don't mind * luh. Cos' you know yah."
IT'S OLEVEL YEAR.
Everything else doesn't matter except RESULTS.

You might not get this chance ever again, You'll only regret sitting wondering why.

2010-02-06T15:21:00.002+08:00

Even if the sky is falliing down, You're my only (:

ABC JKL MNO XYZ;

You never know why, you'll never know what's on my mind.
Request to post by a STALKER of my blog. Hahs.
She reads EVERY SINGLE WORD AND LINE of my post.

It's all, all my fault (:
1. Continue, continue I don't mind. I really dk what to say. Say I'm really stupid & let you make use like that? Nvm, Will continue let you make use :D.
2. Your words seriously hurt me like shit. No, It's not I want to. But I hate balancing all these tgt. I've problems, I believe you have too uh? Hahs, I'm the PROBLEMATIC one. I got ALOT OF problems. Hurt me, hurt me more. Everytime, I cry because of you (:
3. What happened? I need you. Now, In your eyes, there's only stead, * & * . You can never erase the fact that I need you. You used to always listen to me when I need you, when I'm down. I've no idea what happened. I wish you happiness, at the very same time, I need you. It hurts my heart to say so.
4. It's like there's only love & * in your eyes. I ain't tired of it. I rather you talk to me about them everyday. I need you, or rather we. It hurts my heart to tell you to give up. That why I never did. But in my heart, I do wish to say so. They told me to let go, But I can't, just can't. Hais.
5. Another, to the both of you. I'm really tired of hearing *** & all the tiredness from you all. It's not like you're the only one. I might not understand, But... I just want, want to have a proper meal & chat tgt. Without having to meantion * & * . Hahs, I guess it's impossible. Wish you all the best, I hope to get back soon (:

Faked laughter.

2010-02-03T21:11:00.002+08:00

Hello, Don't worry bout' me :D I'm extremely fine!
Things hurt me here & there. But I ain't affected though! :D

Learning to love my life, Even though how suckish it is ~
Learning to love all my subjects, Even though how badly I do in them ~
Learning to love all my "friends", Even though whatever they done to me ~
Learning to love, learning to love you (:

*something happened today ahhs* :D
Only, * & * knows ! ~~Cheeredmeupalot.~~
Practically laughing like mad when just thinking about it!

Okays, There's NO PE today! (My PE shirt still smells nice o.o)
Chem Geog Amaths English, SLACKED throughout!
I'm starting, starting to dislike * moremore & more. Hais.

Cause I’m still learning the art of love

You know you need someone, When the need’s so strong.
When they’re gone you don’t know how to go on. So the whole world is stuck in a moment.
Cos' every minutes like an hour. Every hours like a day. Every day lasts forever.
But what else am i gonna do. I’d wait forever and a day for you.

Even when we mad, and say we’re through. Deep inside you feel the same way i do.
Might as well turn around and just end this. Cause it’s harder tryin' to stay mad.
I could tell you that you can’t stay here, knowing just as soon as you disappear,
that I’ll be missing you baby. Soon as you get up and you walk away.

you.

2010-02-02T17:27:00.010+08:00

I don't know why, why do I feel so nervous, when I'm just thinking about you D:

Hello :D,
I'm home early. I'm suppose to sleep. I don't feel tired.
Hais, Time's travelling at a speed faster than me! I must catchup soon ehs..

I don't know, I don't understand what's happening.
I don't know to be pissed or sad. Seriously, I'm sick and tired of crying etc.
Everything also push to me, I'm really tired of it.
I'm enduring, enduring through it. I hate the feeling of being lonely & left out.
Hais. Goodluck in the future, I've nothing to say.
I know you won't read this or whatever :D. Hahs, Idc (:

When I'm quiet, you complain that I emo, don't talk.
When I talk, you complain that I'm noisy, I talk too much.
SHUTUP ALSO CANNOT, TALK ALSO CANNOT. YOU FUCK OFF LAH.

My heart beats so-hard, when you're walking two steps away from me :D.
& You're SO CUTE! :P

I suck (:

2010-01-30T19:18:00.010+08:00

I had a dream, a dream all about you; ):

Here to post! :D
Cos' my loveliest lover asked me to (:So many things happening recently, that makes my really tired.
~~I really dk what to do.~~ Hahs, Where are you?
It's really hard to face the reality now,
OLEVELS IS NEARING, day by day.
~~& It's still so hard for me to stay in the reality.~~
Wakeup wakeup please. Someone please slap me. Yes, I do hate physics :D. But I'm passing it no matter what.
Aim, just aiming for a pass, a C6. Really enough for me (:
I want to pass the test this monday. I wanna prove that I can make it.
STUDY HARD {:

Distractions, I hate it so much ):
I've to try and study as hard as I could all the way till november.
Less computer, Lesser slackings :/
I've to attend almost all remedials luh :X. Except Emaths, Geog.
Means I've to study EXTRA hard for them, eh? :S
Today, Had flag day :D
Walked around amk like 2 times w/ JPZ.
Back to school, (:
Sorry for emo-ing a little. Idw to say what happened, ~~you won't understand~~.
Lunched with G J P :D.
Fun eh, though was still abit emoing that time :X
~~Due to those memories, hais (:~~
Slacked awhile, then homed. So long we never slacked together!
Hope we got more chance after O's :D.

Oh, byebye.
I need to prepare my essay for SStest (:

Smile Smile!

2010-01-23T13:57:00.004+08:00

Everybody stay happy please!
Esp purple pink blue green orange.

Everybody's leaving, I know I ain't anyone impt to anyone.
But each & everyone of you are impt to me.
Especially, you.

I'm faking that smile everyday in school {:
Being happy is always better! CHEERUP ALL!

Boo.

2010-01-16T20:58:00.002+08:00

I don't know how to describe this feeling,

伤心想哭时还是要自己去面对。
朋友，终有一天都会离开你的。
我再也不会相信永远的友情。

All, leaving one by one.
I really can't take it anymore.
Maybe I'm just thinking too much.
I need you I need you. Where are you? Hais.

MIA, I shall just live my life alone.

Hais.

2010-01-12T15:12:00.003+08:00

I'm losing you you you you you & you.
Not blaming anyone, I'm blaming myself.
Why're all leaving me one by one...
Idk what's this feeling, Idk what to do.
I feel so unsafe ): Nobody by my side. I don't get it, hais.

Maybe I shouldn't care so much uh? Hais.. (:
Olevel year, I ain't working hard enough.
Jiayou (: STUDY HARD. Okay, I'll just try ):

Stress Stress Stress, I just couldn't take it anymore.
Useless, ain't doing anything but, cry :X

Hi (:

2010-01-11T00:25:00.002+08:00

HelloHello!
I ain't going to get irritating or, whatever (:
Nobody knows, nobody understands, nobody cares.

Sometime I just wonder what I'm in this world for,
For being a friking substitute to be used & throw.
Nobody gave a freaking damn if I didn't *.
Why must everything be shown so specifically on the face?

Stop the questioning,
I didn't say anything cos' everyone's BUSY.
BUSY UNTILL NO TIME.
I shall just get lost luh! BYE.

well, i'm tired (:

2010-01-08T02:20:00.002+08:00

Look at the time nownownow.
Okay, It's 2.24am btw :D.

Stressed, tired, cannot make it. Afriad Scared, even traumatised.
I guess just noone would understand me.

Well, I'm thinking of someone right this moment :)
Prediction; Tmr'll SUCK like !@#$%^&*
Booktalk tmr, I'M THE LAST AGAIN! -.-

Back's hurting, shoulder's aching, jaw's PAIN o.o
This post is random -.-!

I love my secret place <3! So fun there luh XD.

New post! :D, not any soon :/

2010-01-05T15:08:00.003+08:00

Posting since I got home early :D.

Won't be posting any sooner cos' of lazyness
& there nothing to post about.

School's boring, hell boring.

Got to study hard this year, try.
Yeah, bye :)

& yeah, less computer & handphone this year :X.

ps/ showing one post only, :)

Insomnia, again.

2010-01-03T05:40:00.002+08:00

Hehes, I can't sleep eheh :D.
Even after double dosage of panadol :P.
& it's less than 30hours & I'll get to see all my loves again! :D

I'm gna get to sleep like seriously, bye :/

TWOZEROONEZERO

2010-01-02T02:28:00.003+08:00

Happy new year :D.
I know I'm abit lag luh, but shh :D.

New year, new resoulutions, new targets, new attitude :D.
Firstly I'm gna dedicated a post to, who else? My loves :P.

Huitong;
TONG' ER :D. Don't blame me cos' I'm going to write your's the longest again :)
It's fate that we knew each other, & then got up till now.
Knew you through shishan XD.
The first time we met was during july, You added my MSN during october :D.
That day I was down, you managed to cheer me up.
From then, I knew we could be friends :). & of course, I told you lots of rubbish & made you forget I ain't a band member XD.
We then became closer & closer each day.
Up till now :), I hope we won't drift yeah? XD.
I'm gna graduate soon D: , Will miss you the most XD!
Don't forget, there's always me when you need help :D.
Goodlucks in SYF'10 & Streaming :D
& Thanks for making 2009 such a memorable one! :P. *you know my deepest secret* D:

Sihui;
BOBO FISHBALLS :D. I bet you've forgotten how you knew me XD.
It was during 2008(?), I think.
You added me on fs. & yeaps, we got along quite well?
We then got closer cos' of something, you forget alr then come ask me XD.
& yeaps, I couldn't write any longer cos' I'm saving my speech :D.
Thanks for making my 2009 such an memorable one (: ,
& yeaps, goodlucks w/ sec3 subs. Esp the maths eh :S.
Got anything can ask me, I'll try to help but I doubt I can luh :P.

Veronica;
HEHES, Knew you during 2008 :D.
Long story of how we knew each other. But I'd still remember :D.
Got closer during 2009, thanks for being there when I'm down.
I got nothing to say luh! I'm gna graduate this yr. I know you'll miss me de lah :D.
Hehes, Goodlucks in the sec3 subs! Anything go ask zn,
Don't find me cos' I won't know XD! Okay luh, Kidding :D
But I doubt I'll be much of a help :) & Thanks for 2009 :D.

To be continued, I want to sleep alr. It's alr 3.24AM!

150th :D. Birthdays, again :)

2009-12-30T02:42:00.006+08:00

Happy birthday Cinyee Kyna Vanessa.L
I LOVE ALL :D!

Bored-er day by day :P.
You don't understand, I need you by my side :)

florence: hahahas! aiya cuz damn long nv eat mah .__. so wish can eat lorhh ;P . anyws tag! ;D
florence: M&M LOVER ! ;D heretotagyouuu <3>
Merry belated christmas, love! Wahahas, Craving? XD. I LOVE MY LOVER :D Seeya soon yeah? :P. Miss ya :P
♥Sihui.: Bleah ! :}
Hehes! Chaoda fishball flavoured hot angkukueh that can cook egg for me to eat :D ILOVEYOU! XD
Kimberly: Boo
Kimberly: Boo
Kimberly: Boo
Peekaboo :D
zIhUi(:: yOz!!!! :D MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!:D
Merry christmas zihui :D. I LOVEEEEEEEYOU XD
yiru: RELINK YA:)
Relink soon :D. I'm lazy :P. Hope you like your present? XD. Love ya! :P
HUITONG!: MEI'ERR!I survived the camp and you're away ): FASTERFASTER COME BACK!
TONG'ERRRRRRRRR :D. I back very long le ah XD. Hehes, You injured like mad called survive ah? Bluff meeeeeee! ): Hehes! ME LOVE YOU :D. See you soon in school yah :D. *excited* :D

sad

2009-12-29T02:01:00.002+08:00

I ain't going to get all emo or whatever shit that can get out of me.
It's better to keep things to yourself yah.
So, yeaps. I'm just going to shutup and not say anything.
I ain't going to get this kind of "revenge" or anything,
Forgive & forget? Continue, *? Hais...

I know you'll be there, (L)

Away

2009-12-16T17:57:00.003+08:00

Away from 17th-24th {:
Will miss all of you :D, Esp those in camp :X.

Don't hesitate to give me a text :DD.
Don't worry as there won't be extra charges as you're sending from sg xD.
I'll try my best to reply all :P.

Birthday(s)

2009-12-15T21:08:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday Jiexin, Peijun, Sherene :D
Love all of youu :P.

Currently, all military band members 're in school for camp now :/
WISH THEM GOODLUCK XD.

All throw me alone at home ):
Lucky got m&ms pei wo :D. She also kena throww~ XD

Yesterday:
Out w/ Huitong & Kyna to disturb them :P.
Waited for them @ MRT awhile as both were LATE :P.

CDshop-Hangten-Hub-Fairprice-Mac-Hangten-422-Cheers-central-Myhouse :D

They totally rummaged through my comp, HAHAHA!
Went down for kyna's icecream aft she chose her bag :P.
Sent them home aft that :D.

P/S: They were totally addicted to the thingy in my house o.o. CRAZY PEOPLE :P
& I'm playing with it too xDD

(speechless)

2009-12-13T00:58:00.002+08:00

HelloHello :D

2 days to Jiexin's & Peijun's 15th :P
17 days to Cinyee's 15th & Kyna's 13th :P

♥ Sihui: Hahahs , so as long as i got update you cant vnr wor <: I still can o.o. You got update, I'll CONSIDER tagging :D

Chi !: Hey HAHA. Thanks so much for your help. See you at work! Luvs.
You're welcome :D. Hehe, Today was slackkkk xD

GRACE: relink me yeah (:
Soon :)

KYNA(:: STILL GOT 21 DAYS LEH!SEESEE!
Yeslah Yeslah. 17 more days only xD

shishan: huihui!! tagged(:
Yoh shanshan xD

JIEXIN {: Mine leh? :(
Hehe, Sorry! I edit le xP

HUITONG!: PEEKABOO!(: Yayyay!You reply mine longer!MUHAHAHAHAH!My blog is smart okkeh
BOO :} Hehe! You want longlonglonglong reply? o.o HAHAHAHA! I swear your's is stupiddd xD Hehe! Love you xP

yiru's 15th

2009-12-09T01:10:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY YIRU :D
10 years of everlasting friendship <3>
Will pass you present ASAP yeah :P

Hm...
6 days to Jiexin's & Peijun's 15th :D
16 days to Christmas :D
21 days to Cinyee's 15th & Kyna's 13th. :D
26 days to school ):

Update :D

2009-12-07T14:30:00.004+08:00

Bleahhhh!
I got nothing to update luh :X

Hehe! I got a feeling that I just toured around singapore -.-!
Yewtee-Yiochukang-Pasirris-Serangoon-Habourfront.
All I've been in less then A WEEK TIME :D

2 more days to yiru's
8 more days to jiexin's & peijun's
18 more days to christmas
23 more days to cinyee's & kyna's

♥ Sihui: Whey , UPDATE <: !
♥ Sihui: SOTONG, Bleah!
YOU LAZY PIG :D

VERONICA: HI BANGALA! XD
Hello blackie :DD

florence: hahaha dun worry luh i will rmb de ;D so relaxxx alright ? ^^
Must remember ah. Kyna's also :P. Relaxing~ M&MS :D

HUITONG!: 0.0 I see my name so many times!xDD
Bleahhh. Let you see more? HUITONGHUITONGHUITONGHUITONG :D Faster fix your stupid blog xPP

\ANNA: wah, whack me? ): okay lor dun be friends lor hahahaha
Bleahhh! You say don't de jiu don't be ah? xPP

Thinking too much :x

2009-12-01T16:10:00.002+08:00

10 to go.
1. Are you single: Yeah o.o
2. Are you happy: No :x
3. Are you bored: YES! :D
4. Are you fair: Not very? :O
5. Are you indian: No. -.-
6. Are you stupid: Yea (:
7. Are you honest: Lols. :x
8. Are you irish: No?
9. Are you nice: YESYES XD
10. Are you asian: Yeah? (:

Ten Facts.
Full name: Song Meihui
Nickname: :X
Birthplace: Singapore :P
Hair colour: Idk :D
Hair style: Layered? :O
Eye color: Black xD
DOB: 22/11
Mood: Moodless :P
Favourite colour: ORANGE XD
One place you wished to visit: Secret xP

Ten facts about your love.
1. Been in love: Lol, yeah :O
2. Believe love in first sight: Yeap :x
3. Currently have a crush: I'M CAREFREE XD
4. Hurt emotionally before: YES LAH O.O
5. Broken someone's heart: No? I think no xD
6. Have your heart broken: Yup :X
7. Like someone but kept in heart: Yup :X.
8. Are you afraid of commitment: No? Lols xD
9. Last person you hugged: STITCH :D:D
10. Last person you said ILYs: Forget le ah. Should be tong' er xD

This or That.
Love or lust: Love xD
Cats or dogs: NONE :O
Best friends or regular friends: Best friends (:
Creamy or crunchy: Crunchy xP
Pencil or Pen: Pen :X
Wild night out or romantic in: Wild night out~
Money or happiness: Happiness xP
Night or day: Night :DD
IM or phone: Both xD

Have you ever.
Been caught sneaking out: Erm, No?
Seen a polar bear: Yea :O
Done smth you regret: Lots :X
Jumpin: Ahhh? o.o
Eat food that fell on the floor: No?!
Eat an entire Jaw breaker: Wth is that :O
Been caught naked: No?! :X
Wanted boyfriend back: Want-ED ah :X
Cried because lost a person forever: Yeah ):
Wanted to disappear: Yeah, Can't bear to :O

Preference in love.
Smile or eyes: Smile. xD
Light or dark hair: Anything xP
Hugs or kiss: Both :X
Shorter or taller: Taller -.-.
Intelligence or attraction: Both? xP
Violent or pathetic: None :o
Older or younger: Older xPP
Outgoing or quiet: Outgoing? :X
Sweet or bad: Sweettt xD

Have you.
Performed in a large crowd: Yeah? :O
Talk on the phone longer then an hour: Lol, YES XD
A rock concert: Nope :X
Cheerleading team: NO?!
Dance team: NO XD
Sports team: NO XP
Drama play or production: Yeah? :X. The drama in curiculum thingy? :O
Owned rich cars: No?
In a rap video: No?

Last.
Last call you made: Sihui? :O DAMN LONG AGO XD
Hugged: Stitch xD
Hung out: Erm :X, Hw, V, Zn? I think :O
Work: Some unknown school :O
Talked to: Mother :X
You IM'd: Huitong xD
Texted: Huitong xD
Movie: Forget le xD
Last person or thing you miss: Someone :X

Boringggggg :D

2009-11-30T18:03:00.003+08:00

Hello Hello :D
I'm blogging while my tong' er buys her dinner :P
(I almost forget I've a blog like seriously :X)

Huitong says : Edison waits for apple to drop downnn :P
Ohmygosh, SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEE <3!

& Happy belated birthday to Shishan & Niven :D. (29th nov)
9 more days to my dearest yiru's birthday :P.

2009-11-22T00:01:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D

Thanks for all the wishes :D (Alphabetical order)
Annabelle, Branda, Cinyee, Deena, Huimin, Huitong, Jade, Jaishree, Jesscca, John, Kimberly, Kyna, Lihuan, Niven, Nicole, Peijun, Shinrong, Shishan, Sihui, Vanessa.H, Veronica.G, Vicky, Vivian.T, Yanyee, Yiru, Yokehuei, Yurong, Zihui.

Okay, PATHETIC ENOUGH :D

Three days (:

2009-11-19T15:30:00.013+08:00

Warning, SUPER LONG POST :D

171109
Wakeup at arnd 5 :/ Prepared & Off to meet Vivian(s)
Sat at the busstop like superrrrr longgggg eh xP

School-Change-Prepared-Sound check-Run through.
Performed-Slacked-Phototaking-Changed-Dismissed :D
Off to eat at opp. school (: (Waiting for SIHUIADORABLE)

Managed to catch the sight of my adorable in her full u :D
& My chio-est tong' er in her * (I think I can't say uh?)

Hub with Vivian2 & Sihui :D
Went to fairprice to get our, "Ingredients" xD
Bus-ed down to her house while, Vivian went home :D

Reached-cooked-Ate-Played :DHad fun with the bubbles etcetc xD
Cooked untill the, erm, POT CHAODA :D
But the food no chaoda :D Pro right we xD

Had sooooo much fun, Cleaning the pots xD
Wasting her mamalemon :D
Then homed :D

181109
Wokeup at arnd 2+ :/
Bathe, Rushed down to hospital & blahblah :X

Bus-ed down to parkway parade to meet them? :/
Actually planed for a movie.
Reached & then they say there NO GV/CATHAY?!
Walked around AWHILE. & Bus-ed back to AMK for movie. xP

Checked & then there wasn't any movie available :/
Dinner-ed at amk food court :D
DAMN FUN K :D

Decided to have dessert as we're damn hungryyyyy xD
So yeap :D Conclude, Their dessert stall seriously epic FAIL.
Never going back there againn xD
Walk-ed arnd amk awhile, Train-ed home xD

Today
ROTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT :D

Overdued pictures from PHYSICS PRACTICAL :D

Overdued pictures from CHEMISRTY PRACTICAL :D (There's still alot xP)

P/S: Huitong is some psycho O.O! She can predict what I'm gna say nexxxxt :D
Probably cos' I keep repeating my lines xD. Ohmy, I NEED NEW LINES XDXD!

Sad

2009-11-19T00:46:00.001+08:00

Those scenes flashback-ed in my mind.
I couldn't stop thinking about it,
Cried a thousand times over it.
I feel (inserts anyword that could describe me now).

I just hope it never happened :/
Hope, It can never get too high up.

I need, or rather, want someone by my side now :/
But, nobody, just nobody cares.
Oh whatever, Just get used to it.
Wakeup, Nobody cares about you, JUST DIE.

No, I can't bear to live the world (:
I wished nothing've happened, I wished I can stop thinking :/
Forget it, Nobody cares, I'm so useless (:

Fatigue

2009-11-12T18:49:00.003+08:00

TEN MORE DAYS :D

Okay, I don't see why I'm so enthu about it uh.
Nothing special ANW.

Getting so irritated nowadays.
Too bad if you hate it --

& Finally,
I LOVE ALL MY LOVELYS :D (You know who you're xP)

Feels so empty

2009-11-08T01:12:00.004+08:00

Look at the timeeeeeee :D

Guess I'm back to my late night sleeping again :P
OMG, How I'm gna survive next year? :/
In bed by 9, sleep by 10. Seriously, OMG.

All because that gay told my parents I slept in class hur.
I never sleep okay, you gay ^^.
I just, conveniently lied my head on the table cos' I don't wish to see you face :D
& I'm still listening right?! Just that you don't know how to teach & your words SIMPLY don't make me understand. More or less get into my head.

& I wondering,
Why does people wna drop chemistry, I rather drop physics.
But, no. I'm proving to that gay I can do it ^^

Shitty, My eyes CMI but my body don't wish to sleep.
ARGH, TORTURING :/

2009-11-06T19:23:00.005+08:00

Just felt like posting :D

EGG DIDN'T /FORGET TO OPEN THE AIR HOLE OF TH BUNSEN BURNER DURING SPA! :P
Until I finished mine & wondered why her's took so longgggg to evaporate :P
"Psttt, Open the air hole lah dumb :D"

Anw, My experiment was an epic fail :/
Changed results to make it PERFECT :D
Found out that not only me, alot people did that too :)

& Grats to those who got into their wanted stream, Cheerup for those who didn't.
& MUST APPEALLLLL :P

P/S. LEONGYOKEHUEI LOVES MY COOKIES :D

SPA assesment.

2009-11-04T22:19:00.002+08:00

Tmr's chem SPA assesment.
Kindof scared uh :/.

ANW I'M GNA BAKE AFT SPA :D
Cupcakes & Cookies ! xPxP.

ButBut, Hope it'll be edible lah :X
IT'LL BE EDIBLE KAY :/

2009-10-30T16:26:00.002+08:00

HelloHello
ByebyeByebye.

Not going to post unless I really feel like.
Lols, Life's tiring.

&JIAYOU for all the retests & GOODLUCK for streaming results.

2009-10-27T13:24:00.003+08:00

Well, I'm touching those books earlier than usual.
Just, not that hardcore :D

Physics & Amaths :D
I'm going to overcome :D:D
TYS YAH XDXD!

& I'm seriously going to make you STOP picking on me.
JUST CAUSE I'm the last in class. SO WHAT PLEASE?!
Fcuking gay, Never offend you kay.
Yes, My aim is to make you STFU. SHUTUPKAYGAY -.-!
& anw, The more you pick on me, the more I don't feel like studying.
But I'm overcoming it. FOR MY OWN SAKE. Not you please -.-.

& I'm seriously gna show you I CAN PASS IT.
WITHOUT any help from anyone. Argh.

2009-10-21T20:25:00.003+08:00

All the results are back. Utterly disappointed.
Failed 4, BORDERLINE passed 3.

Aiming for all passes the next midyear.
D7 for Amaths & Physics should be fine.
& Hope for an A in chemistry D: , Maybe humans.

I'M GOING TO PLAY ALL NOVEMBER :D
Even though there's COE, Which is %#@^%^#$FUCK.

&Goodluck to all sec2s for the streaming.
DON'T WORRY TOO MUCH YAH :D

I'm thinking over & over again.
I shouldn't give up. Continue jiayou & I'll make it, Probably.

2009-10-17T17:57:00.003+08:00

Back :D Early yah o.o!
Hell, Nothing to do now D:

Okay, Tuesday's results, I hope to get ;
E8 for Chinese, Physics.
D7 for Amaths, Humans.
C6 for English, Emaths
B4 for Chem.

MY REPORT BOOK WILL BE FULL OF UNDERLINES :D !
:D This smiley face doesn't mean happy o.o.
HAIS! I'm wondering, What if, I fail Olevels...

I know, I didn't, I didn't try my best...
Everything've been bothering me during the exams.
I still couldn't get over it. Sorry, I'll try, next time.

Will I, Be able to promote? D:

P/S; I beg you, Buyao erxin le can? Please.

Overrrrrrrr

2009-10-15T12:16:00.002+08:00

IT'S OVER, FINALLY OVER :D

I screwed physics, Haven finish & I slept instead.
Really sleep, I mean.

GAHHHHH, GOING OFF NOW :D

Depression

2009-10-14T23:36:00.003+08:00

I think I'm really getting depression sooner or later.

Disorder Your Score
Major Depression: Very High
Dysthymia: High-Moderate
Bipolar Disorder: Slight-Moderate
Cyclothymia: High
Seasonal Affective Disorder: Extremely High
Postpartum Depression: N/A

Depressed

2009-10-11T11:48:00.002+08:00

Totally depressed. I can't help it.

Seniors ask, "You take amaths?, I thought you 305 one leh."
I know, I know. I'm just too stupid.
No, I don't understand why I ended up here in the first place.
I'M STUPID, REALLY!

I ain't pin-pointing anyone/anybody.
I'm suppose to mug now. YES, NOW! &I'm using the computer.
HAIS, HOPELESS.

Rewind;

2009-10-03T18:47:00.002+08:00

Remembering times,
Drifted year by year, month by month, day by day.
Now we're leading lives like strangers.

Lantern festival used to be such an impt day for us.
We'll go out late at night to play, Stay up late at my house.
Talks, play & everything.

Wondering would you come over today,
You didn't even gave a call, not even a message.

I miss you , I'd really do.

205'08

2009-09-28T20:48:00.003+08:00

1 year passed , eoy's coming .
Remembering last year we're still mugging together , as a class .
Those times we spent at the library , together .
Even though we're in different groups , different cliques .

Together , Kind of miss 205'08 now .
Another year's going to pass very soon & we're going to graduate .
& I do miss seeing the guys wear short pants ! HAHA !
Study hard ! , 205'08 :D .

Update .

2009-09-26T19:05:00.002+08:00

Time to post again .
School , Lunch , Library , Home .

Exams , 12 more days .
I'm lacking of confidence , Lacking of concentration
Even lacking of ... MOOD !

Off to rest now :D !
Extremly tired .

That attitude , again .

2009-09-15T17:48:00.003+08:00

Fuck , * today .

I was so damn happy untill lessons started .
Everything's been going my way untill then .
I given , ... HAIYAH . DON'T WANT CARE ALR OKAY !
I think it's you . But I'm not blaming anyone for it .

No mood to post on ,
Got to go catch some sleep now (:

Irritated .

2009-09-11T23:19:00.006+08:00

Yesterday wasn't fun , at all .
Endured all th way throught 8+ .

Th only part I liked was during lunch ,
Talk-ed lots w/ them .

Then was th bbq , Laugh-ed like mad
Slacked around th school . & sms-ed :D
So fun w/ them cann ^^ !

Didn't ate much , no appettide
I still can name you what I ate you know -.- !

After that homed .
AS USUAL .

Today was just tiring , wet , cold & hungry ,
But fun too ^^ !

& I LOVE MY FISHBALL WOR ! <3

Back

2009-09-08T19:48:00.004+08:00

THEY'RE BACK LE ! ^^
Smile Smile !

I'm booked all th way from wednesday-sunday .
OMFG , die .

Holidays not like holidays . HAIS !

Celine: no provs (: i had similar experiences like you toos...i can't bear to leave you alone crying. Now is my turn to cry...i really wish i never existed T.T
. ILOVEBAOBEI ! Baobei don't cryyyyyyyy ! What happened ? Feel free to talk to me yah ? (:

♥SiHui ( L ) .: HO I LOVE YOU MAN . go put like i always do on blog ^^ HAHEHUHO . you rock mans . LOLS ._.
♥SiHui ( L ) .: LALALLA . bounce bounce ~
. I knew you loveeeeeeeeeeee me ! HAHAS , Nicenice mahs :D! & ILOVEYOU ALOT TOO xD !

Gone w/ th wind .

2009-09-07T13:34:00.003+08:00

They're goneeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
For 2 days , I'm so sad ! HAIS .

Wokeup early in th morning to bid peijun , goodbye xD !
, obviously remind her bring toothbrush -.- !
& fell asleep almost immediately !

anw , reply tags .

PEIJUN: hahas. i lazy to blog these few days or maybe these FEW WEEKS. hahas. tmr's CAMP. zZZz
. HAHAS ! You at camp alrrrrrrrrr ! Faster come backkkkkk ! See you ! , on wednesday xD !

Celine: meihui! <3 You never go back to GYPS on tchers day? My blogspot revive le! You can start tagging ^^
. I got go back ah ? For awhile . HAHAS ! Okayyy , Will tag soon ! Thanks for that day yah xD !

♥SiHui ( L ) .: HELLOHELLO . you not the cutest ! i am i am ! :D Lol bhb-ness .
. Yea lah , Because fishball is round one mahs xD ! Round round=cute cute ! HAHA .

shishan: hoho! so many excuses arh(:
. Not excuses xD ! Is reasons ! HAHA , Shanshan ! xD

CINYEE: YES? ANYTHING WRONG WITH THE POST UH?
. Nothing wrong ! You so fierce siah ? HAHAS .

Wow .

2009-09-04T20:58:00.002+08:00

Blogging lesser due to my busy-ness .
I'm not that busy anw , I'M LAZY .

Okay , BYE .

Today was funn ^^ !